Off to be an AGGIE!

Well, this past Saturday was one for the books, I moved out for the very first time in my life! ALL BY MYSELF! ha how crazy is that!? well, I guess considering that I'll be 20 in a week, it was about time!

The new place is quite nice! I really enjoy it a lot! It's going to be weird not having anyone tell me what to do though. I get into these weird moods when things change in a big way, or when I can feel a change coming. I will get all deep and start summing up my entire life! It starts to stress me out, so I blog! haha so here are my compiling thoughts all word vomited up in this post!

I'm the BOSS

what the!? I feel like this will be the weirdest adjustment for this next year for me. I love my parents so much and as this moving out process has come about they have been so much help and offered me so many words of advice that I have really taken to heart.  They have always been there through the good and the bad, OBVIOUSLY! ha they are my parents and i've come to realize they want the best for me! Even though they were always there though, I still had rules and guidelines to follow that they have set down. "do the dishes" "clean your room" "be home around 1" "don't drive too fast" "we don't approve of this person" "eat your veggies" haha (kidding i love veggies!) either way! there have always been those "suggestions" we will call them! they have been fantastic at teaching me consequences as well to all those "suggestions" if anyone knew me in high school you'd understand because I was ALWAYS grounded for being 16 minutes late, or not having a clean room. so between my parents rules, and having at least 2 jobs since i was 16, I've always just had someone to tell me what to do! then my first night alone came around, all settled into my room and BOOM! no one could tell me I couldn't leave after 1 o'clock. no one could tell me I had to brush my teeth. no one is going to tell me when how or where i have to study! ha its just a weird empowering feeling I guess. and hopefully i don't have to experience any consequences that are too harsh! (p.s. I like brushing my teeth and my parents haven't had to tell me to do that for a while... haha)

Who I am

Okay, ready for the extra cheese portion of this post!? I sure hope so, because here it goes! I was raised LDS from the time I was born. I have lived in Utah my entire life and in Bountiful at that! EVERYONE here it seems like is LDS or has some sort of religion in their life. They know who Christ is and the general idea of everything I believe. Now, I am one of the least judgmental  people I know. Or at least I think I am? I understand that there are all different walks of life and if anything that's what I've come to find out this year is not everyone is from this bubble I grew up in. (weird I know) ;)  and I respect that! Its so amazing for me to think about all the different stories there are in this world! 6 billion different ones! and mine is just one, and that I can have any sort of roll in anyone else story is so cool to me! But when I was sitting here the other night, it really hit me! I can change someone's story. I can be that good influence that helped them study or that was their friend when they were alone. I am in a completely new place where not a lot of people know me, and I want to make the best of that! This year I want to be able to be a stronger person and be and example of Christ. I'm not saying by any stretch of the imagination that I'm a missionary, or I'm trying to convert people to be a "mormon" no. not at all. everyone has their own freedom and right to what ever they want to believe! i love it! so what i mean by example of Christ, is go about doing good, helping others and reaching out to people who may be too shy or not included. If they'd like to know about my religion, GREAT! but more so, I'd just like to be a good friend and good person to people! and I'm excited for a fresh start with everyone to do that with!

The Roomies

Well, here we go! I've never been super close to girls. There are a only a handful of girls that I can say that I'm good/close friends with. I get along with them just fine! I just understand boys a lot better! So living with 7 other girls for 9 months should be a feat in itself! I'm quite excited and if you ask me I think I got paired up with My roommate just perfectly! I've only spent 2 days with her so far, but she seems preeety daaarn cool! I'm so excited to get to know all of my girls and learn more about their lives!

SO! after that lengthy post, the point is simple! I'M SO EXCITED for this next year! there isn't anywhere I'd rather be and I can't wait for all the experiences i get to have! GO AGGIES!

The Hump

One year ago from tomorrow I sent my best friend out into the mission field. While so many things have changed while he has been away, one thing has stayed the same...
the love and respect I have for him.

If you follow this blog (which I only update every couple of months) you will know all my sappy things i have to say about this amazing boy, but today I'd like to share something a little different about what I have come to realize and learn this past week.

The love that David and I had for each other, isn't an easy one. It hurt at times and has made me grow in ways i didn't realize people had to grow. Its made me realize my potential and everything that I can "one day" have. But through having the taste of this privilege of such an unselfish love... I've been able to recognize it in others as well. Which is what i will talk about mostly...

Tonight I got to hang out with my best friend in the whole world, Amelia. Like i've said in previous posts, AJB is that one person I can go to with ANYTHING I have on my plate at the time, and just spill my gutts to. She's never the person to point a finger, or tell me everything I've done wrong. She's never the one to get mad at me if I'm too busy to call or text her for 2 weeks and understands what it's like to be as busy as I've become. Our lifestyles are very much the same in a different way which i believe has helped us to be able to understand eachother best.

Well readers, my little Amelia has got a new boy (new-ish its been a couple months) and when my close friends get "new boys" I always get very protective, but more so with Mill Ba Dill because if you know me, any guy I've tried to set her up with always ends up going terribly wrong. So when she finds one on her own, that "new boy" now has the responsibility of making up for every wrong boy that I've set her up with AND has to make her super happy like a "new boy" should. But tonight I realized something... this "new boy" she's found... he isn't just some boy to pick up some slack, and he's not a make out buddy or booty call for her... he's her David. After having a reasonably bummer of a day, her boy texted me and made sure I was alright, he comforted me and told me everything would work out. He cared about my welfare because he knew how important it was to Mill and he took it to heart by not only taking care of her but caring for me as well.

Being able to watch them together this past week has made me not only feel so much joy for my best friend, being able to see how happy she's been not only with "new boy" but with just life in general. But it has also made me appreciate and renew the absence I feel for David.

They have the same kind of love that He and I had. The kind of love that you don't have to even know the person they are dating to know that they are completely happy. Its the kind of love that makes you want to wake up a little earlier in the morning just so you can tell that person "good morning handsome i love you! i hope you have an amazing day!" first.
It's the kind of love that you miss them even when they are only 15 minutes away and where even though you saw them 12 hours ago you get butterflies in your stomach when they tell you they are "on their way!" to come see you again. This week has made me miss so much the only person that has ever made me feel 100% wanted all of the time and 100% loved no matter what I looked like, what I was wearing and how bad i smelt. ;)

So on this 1 year mark of David being gone, I'd like to take a moment and thank not only him for showing me how unselfish true love is. But thank my forever best friend, for once AGAIN showing and reminding me that life can be so good and great, and that I have someone out there (2.969.9 miles away ;)) who wants the very best for me, and is willing to do anything to make that happen.

I'm SO SO SO grateful for Amelia and Andrew today. Thank you so much you two for jogging my memory about the perfect boy I sent out. I wish you two the best of luck and I love you both! 

As for Elder Burrahm, I love him today just as much as I did a year ago. I'm so proud of how much work he has done and the growth he's been able to experience. I can't wait to see what this next year has in store for both of us, whether we end up together or not, I can't wait to have my best friend back safe and sound at home. 12 more months let the countdown begin :)

So my friends. Here's to another year of experience for all of us! Be Safe and until next time, Love your lives! :)