the love and respect I have for him.
If you follow this blog (which I only update every couple of months) you will know all my sappy things i have to say about this amazing boy, but today I'd like to share something a little different about what I have come to realize and learn this past week.
The love that David and I had for each other, isn't an easy one. It hurt at times and has made me grow in ways i didn't realize people had to grow. Its made me realize my potential and everything that I can "one day" have. But through having the taste of this privilege of such an unselfish love... I've been able to recognize it in others as well. Which is what i will talk about mostly...
Tonight I got to hang out with my best friend in the whole world, Amelia. Like i've said in previous posts, AJB is that one person I can go to with ANYTHING I have on my plate at the time, and just spill my gutts to. She's never the person to point a finger, or tell me everything I've done wrong. She's never the one to get mad at me if I'm too busy to call or text her for 2 weeks and understands what it's like to be as busy as I've become. Our lifestyles are very much the same in a different way which i believe has helped us to be able to understand eachother best.
Well readers, my little Amelia has got a new boy (new-ish its been a couple months) and when my close friends get "new boys" I always get very protective, but more so with Mill Ba Dill because if you know me, any guy I've tried to set her up with always ends up going terribly wrong. So when she finds one on her own, that "new boy" now has the responsibility of making up for every wrong boy that I've set her up with AND has to make her super happy like a "new boy" should. But tonight I realized something... this "new boy" she's found... he isn't just some boy to pick up some slack, and he's not a make out buddy or booty call for her... he's her David. After having a reasonably bummer of a day, her boy texted me and made sure I was alright, he comforted me and told me everything would work out. He cared about my welfare because he knew how important it was to Mill and he took it to heart by not only taking care of her but caring for me as well. Being able to watch them together this past week has made me not only feel so much joy for my best friend, being able to see how happy she's been not only with "new boy" but with just life in general. But it has also made me appreciate and renew the absence I feel for David.
They have the same kind of love that He and I had. The kind of love that you don't have to even know the person they are dating to know that they are completely happy. Its the kind of love that makes you want to wake up a little earlier in the morning just so you can tell that person "good morning handsome i love you! i hope you have an amazing day!" first.
It's the kind of love that you miss them even when they are only 15 minutes away and where even though you saw them 12 hours ago you get butterflies in your stomach when they tell you they are "on their way!" to come see you again. This week has made me miss so much the only person that has ever made me feel 100% wanted all of the time and 100% loved no matter what I looked like, what I was wearing and how bad i smelt. ;)
So on this 1 year mark of David being gone, I'd like to take a moment and thank not only him for showing me how unselfish true love is. But thank my forever best friend, for once AGAIN showing and reminding me that life can be so good and great, and that I have someone out there (2.969.9 miles away ;)) who wants the very best for me, and is willing to do anything to make that happen.
I'm SO SO SO grateful for Amelia and Andrew today. Thank you so much you two for jogging my memory about the perfect boy I sent out. I wish you two the best of luck and I love you both!
So my friends. Here's to another year of experience for all of us! Be Safe and until next time, Love your lives! :)
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